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I feel...jittery. As if I've drunk too much coffee. I haven't written any solo fic for days. The last update on my page was the Sunday drabble. I can't settle to doing anything productive and I'm wasting a hell of a lot of time. Hate that.
When LJ went down I was quivery with agitation. When I screwed up the Secretary tag I howled so loudly Eleanor rushed in to see why mom was making the weird noises. I'm not my normal calm self at all.
Co written stuff is fine, which is all that's keeping me sane.
And in a few hours 5 girls under nine will arrive to join my two and there will be mini marshmallow fights, squeeing louder than we'd do if a naked Spike materialised in front of us and reprised the willing slave line from Rest in Peace, and as a responsible sleepover mom I have to stay sober.
Actually, it'll be fun. They're all sweet and well behaved and practically family, but heh, it'll be loud. David murmured something about bass season opening and night fishing but I squashed that idea until it was a faint smear on the ground.
Things seem to be calming down again which is good and the current 'in' discussion seems to be BNF related. When I arrived here, March 2003, soggy of earlobe and as bouncy as a badly trained kitten, I posted anonymously as I didn't have an LJ (signing them though!) on![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
harmonyfb's LJ and mentioned a perceived hierarchy that I'd never known was there,
Hierarchy' is defined as a classification according to ability. I'm just saying that if you combined everyone's lists of favourite writers, you'd end up with a pyramid. And I didn't know who was sitting on the pointy bit. Not implying a Conspiracy or anything. Cream rises.
Wich I kind of stand by still. In a fandom as large as Buffy/Angel, I doubt there's going to be anyone whom everyone knows, but within smaller sections, yes, there are Names. I'm still not sure my list of them would be the same as everyone else's though, so I don't think it's as set in stone as some people ::cough::f_h::cough:: seem to think; one person's BNF is another's medium name, is unknown two steps away.
Buffy is my second fandom. In my first (Heinlein) I knew the BNFs. Knew them well, was friends with them, worked with them. Don't think I ever made the list myself; there was that same mildly irritating sense of stuff happening I didn't know about that I get here, and if I'd been one, I would've known, right? ::grin:: but I guess I was pretty well known after five years and a hell of a lot of work posting, organising chats, writing essays for the Journal... It was a small pond though. Buffy/Angel is huge. I don't think any one person can rule Buffy fanfic, or even rule subsections like pairings or genres or art forms like vidding or icons. All to the good, as well. There's no need for it that I can see.
But I'd be a strange Heinlein fan if I didn't admit to the existence of elites. Some writers are better than others. Some people have personalities that make them shine and attract moths because we all want to get warm. In most cases, I'm guessing if they get well-known, it's something that hapens to them wherever they are, whatever they do. I remember them from school.
I used to feel jealous, envious, bitter. Well, I was ten... a plain, brainy, specky four eyed girl who preferred reading to socialising because books didn't poke me with sticks.
But I don't hate the shiny people any more, not at all, as long as they're not bullies with it. Bullies, after many nasty experiences, are something that gets my hackles rising and I tend to wade in fists flying.
This is from my favourite Heinlein book, 'Have Space Suit -Will Travel'. Peewee's ten, a genius, and she knows it. Kip's a genius too, but 18 and doesn't know it.
She blushed. "I can't help being a genius."
Which left her wide open and I was about to rub her nose in it - when I saw how unhappy she looked.
I remembered hearing Dad say:'Some people insist that 'mediocre" is better than "best". They delight in clipping wings because they themselves can't fly. They despise brains because they have none. Pfah!'
Works for me.
When LJ went down I was quivery with agitation. When I screwed up the Secretary tag I howled so loudly Eleanor rushed in to see why mom was making the weird noises. I'm not my normal calm self at all.
Co written stuff is fine, which is all that's keeping me sane.
And in a few hours 5 girls under nine will arrive to join my two and there will be mini marshmallow fights, squeeing louder than we'd do if a naked Spike materialised in front of us and reprised the willing slave line from Rest in Peace, and as a responsible sleepover mom I have to stay sober.
Actually, it'll be fun. They're all sweet and well behaved and practically family, but heh, it'll be loud. David murmured something about bass season opening and night fishing but I squashed that idea until it was a faint smear on the ground.
Things seem to be calming down again which is good and the current 'in' discussion seems to be BNF related. When I arrived here, March 2003, soggy of earlobe and as bouncy as a badly trained kitten, I posted anonymously as I didn't have an LJ (signing them though!) on
harmonyfb's LJ and mentioned a perceived hierarchy that I'd never known was there,Hierarchy' is defined as a classification according to ability. I'm just saying that if you combined everyone's lists of favourite writers, you'd end up with a pyramid. And I didn't know who was sitting on the pointy bit. Not implying a Conspiracy or anything. Cream rises.
Wich I kind of stand by still. In a fandom as large as Buffy/Angel, I doubt there's going to be anyone whom everyone knows, but within smaller sections, yes, there are Names. I'm still not sure my list of them would be the same as everyone else's though, so I don't think it's as set in stone as some people ::cough::f_h::cough:: seem to think; one person's BNF is another's medium name, is unknown two steps away.
Buffy is my second fandom. In my first (Heinlein) I knew the BNFs. Knew them well, was friends with them, worked with them. Don't think I ever made the list myself; there was that same mildly irritating sense of stuff happening I didn't know about that I get here, and if I'd been one, I would've known, right? ::grin:: but I guess I was pretty well known after five years and a hell of a lot of work posting, organising chats, writing essays for the Journal... It was a small pond though. Buffy/Angel is huge. I don't think any one person can rule Buffy fanfic, or even rule subsections like pairings or genres or art forms like vidding or icons. All to the good, as well. There's no need for it that I can see.
But I'd be a strange Heinlein fan if I didn't admit to the existence of elites. Some writers are better than others. Some people have personalities that make them shine and attract moths because we all want to get warm. In most cases, I'm guessing if they get well-known, it's something that hapens to them wherever they are, whatever they do. I remember them from school.
I used to feel jealous, envious, bitter. Well, I was ten... a plain, brainy, specky four eyed girl who preferred reading to socialising because books didn't poke me with sticks.
But I don't hate the shiny people any more, not at all, as long as they're not bullies with it. Bullies, after many nasty experiences, are something that gets my hackles rising and I tend to wade in fists flying.
This is from my favourite Heinlein book, 'Have Space Suit -Will Travel'. Peewee's ten, a genius, and she knows it. Kip's a genius too, but 18 and doesn't know it.
She blushed. "I can't help being a genius."
Which left her wide open and I was about to rub her nose in it - when I saw how unhappy she looked.
I remembered hearing Dad say:'Some people insist that 'mediocre" is better than "best". They delight in clipping wings because they themselves can't fly. They despise brains because they have none. Pfah!'
Works for me.