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lovesbitca never got her fic for the Wesley/Faith ficathon she helped to run. That's just a shame. So I got her request and dashed off this which isn't half smutty enough but it's better than nothing, I hope. It's about 4,700 words and it goes slightly AU after Wesley finds out about the memory wipe in S5.
The request was Two things you definitely want included in your fic: (You can suggest more than two, if you wish to give your author an idea of the kind of fic you really like. But only the first two are required to be included.) Future fic, sarcasm, Wes topping, a furious argument in the street and then sex in a hallway.
One thing you definitely *don't* want to see in your fic: non-con, rape
Preferred rating: NC 17
Watching, Waiting, Anticipating
She knows he's watching her from the shadows but he's merged with them so well, and he's so motionless, that the vampire snarling in her face and making her eyes water, because, man, does he ever need to floss, ignores him for now.
Maybe he thinks Wesley's gonna make a tasty dessert, but she's not about to let him find out that if he is, it's something like sugarless rhubarb pie, bound to make your fangs water and ache with the sourness of it.
The vampire takes the small scrap of a chance she's given him by letting her eyes go to that silent onlooker and she feels his fangs pierce her skin even as his hand comes up to squeeze her breast. The fucker's practically humping her as he starts to suck and it'd be fucking disgusting if it wasn't for the fact that he's so worked up he's easy meat.
The dust clears and Wesley's a body's-width away from her, stake raised, eyes dark with something so far past fury she can't put a name to it. She hadn't seen him move, doesn't know if they both struck at once, but she gives a shaky little laugh and tucks her stake away.
"Get bored waiting, did you?"
As ice-breakers go, it's as effective as trying to melt the polar cap with a thimbleful of cold water.
"What the bloody hell was that?"
"Me. Slaying a vampire."
Sometimes she thinks she needs to look into taking a vow of silence. In the three months since Wes turned up, sneered at Robin until he faded into the – heh- woodwork and whisked her off to New York, muttering something about her deplorable lack of proper training, he's been getting on her last fucking nerve, but he's been helping her too. He's taken over her life and she's gained a few pounds – all muscle – forgotten what it's like to be awake at ten am because he has her slaying ' til dawn, and spent hours and hours and fucking hours trying to crack the shell around him.
She just doesn't get it. When they'd gone up against Angelus, Wes had been hard, yeah, but they'd parted friends; she'd even got a smile, which seems like a distant memory now because she hasn't seen him smile once since she opened the door to him wearing nothing but a happy grin and a skimpy towel, thinking it was Robin with takeout.
He's put them in apartments side-by side, and God knows how he pulled that off, but he did. He always knocks on her door, but if she doesn't open it in time he does it for her, because he's got a key, and she still hasn't recovered from the session he put her through the one time she brought a boy back to scratch an itch so she's turned into a fucking nun. Who kills things.
Sometimes, when she can't sleep, she hears the sound of him pacing, through the paper-thin walls, an endless re-treading of a path around a space as barren of personality as he's become. His stuff's stacked in boxes, even the books, and the walls are bare.
She'd think he was jealous of Dave, Dan – whatever his fucking name was – but in three months he's never touched her outside the training, or the first-aid and she's getting fucking lonely and bored and righteously pissed-off. She might have a robot for a Watcher but she's still got blood in her veins and if she doesn't get laid soon, she's going to sprain her wrist and wouldn't that get him narrow-eyed and tight-lipped? Sorry, Wes, can't train today; spent two hours trying to get off with the help of the lamest porn movie ever, a vibrator that's starting to overheat and this trusty right hand, and see, I pulled a muscle or something.
She's dragged back from that pretty image by a silence that's gone to a scary place.
Wesley's studying her as if she's something he sneezed into a hanky and his lip's curled up.
"He touched you."
And there are at least four places where she lost skin to the wall and the ground, and a couple of places where she's going to have bruises deep enough to last a day, but she knows that's not what he means. Her mouth dries up but she manages to work up enough spit to mumble, "Yeah," because Wes didn't like her just nodding when he asked a question.
Liked her calling him 'Wesley' too but she didn't give him that very often. Lines. You had to draw them somewhere.
"Show me."
"Say what?"
To say she's startled is an understatement. It's dark in the alley for one thing but it's just – this is totally not like him.
"Faith, I gave you an order."
"Yeah, and it made no fucking sense so I ignored it!"
"It's you who decides what makes sense now, is it?" he asks. "You acquired wisdom along with that bottle of vodka you seemed to think I didn't notice you sneaking into your room last night?"
"I didn't sneak it!" Lying was a mistake. Why he's stopped her drinking she doesn't know; not like she'd let it affect her work.
"Oh, yes you did," he says coldly. "And I'm still waiting."
It takes her a second to get back to where they were. "Wes, he was groping my tit, that's all. He didn't hurt me. You can't want to –"
Even in the dimness, lit by the sporadic flickering of a single streetlight, she can see the bland crook of his lips as he raises his eyebrows.
With a snarl she shrugs out of her jacket and holds her arm away from her side, glancing down pointedly at her breast.
He doesn't move away and she starts to wonder just what it's going to take to get him to, because the wall's at her back and he's hung so many, 'Do Not Touch' signs on him she's almost afraid to do what she'd have done with anyone else and pushed them aside.
"I want to see," he says with a slow deliberation. "Lift your top."
And he's flipped. Must have.
Which doesn't explain why she's peeling up her tee and getting chills as his eyes skim all the soft curves she's giving him to stare at.
He's so close she can hear his breath catch and it's an interesting sound, a little crack in the shell. All those taunts and tantrums and swearing because it pissed him off, and all she'd needed to do was flash some skin at a totally ina-fucking-propriate time to get him flustered.
Except as his hand comes up and curves, cupping the air around her breast in a thoughtful, considering kind of way he looks pretty fucking calm. And it doesn't escape her notice that he's telling her, wordlessly, that what he wants to see, the exact square inches fumbled by that filthy, new-risen piece of shit, lies beneath the satin and lace of her scarlet bra.
There's no easy way to do this and for a moment she's so very tempted to start stripping, flinging her clothes at him until he's standing there, a human hanger – but they're not going to be alone down here for long, not now the threat's been taken care of. The dregs who live here, drifting silently until they die, unseen, unnoticed, will be coming back soon now the vamp's gone. And the rats are starting to scurry again, tiny pink-grey feet skittering along the refuse-strewn ground.
With an inarticulate growl, she hooks her fingers into the underwire of the cup and yanks it up, baring her breast and feeling the nipple harden automatically, because of the cool air stroking it, not because Wesley's looking at it because he fucking isn't.
His eyes haven't left her face, as if all he cares about is getting her to perform, jump through each hoop held high in those long, elegant fingers of his, so deft when they're handling a gun or a knife, so careful when they're swabbing out her cuts with the fucking battery acid he calls antiseptic, so clumsy when they're doing something as mundane as making coffee, or doing dishes.
If he'd looked, if he'd just fucking looked at skin only her hands have touched for way too fucking long, she'd have stayed cool, she swears she would, but his indifference sends scalding, humiliated heat over her in a drenching flood and she's fumbling her clothes into place, yelping as her nipple gets pinched in the hasty drag downwards of her bra.
"I didn't tell you to do that," he says mildly, his voice reproving.
She smacks her hand against his chest, her own heaving with deep, shuddering, rage-filled breaths. "You don't get to tell me shit like that!" she screams. "What the fuck is your problem, Wes? Tell me, or so help me, I'm gonna do what I should've done right away and blow a twenty on a phone call to L.A and ask Angel."
His lips thin to nothing. "If you dare –" he begins, but she's already walking away.
"Fuck off, Wes," she calls back over her shoulder. "Take your uptight English ass and get it out of my face." Which is an interesting image but she's too wound to linger on it.
She's at the street when a hand clamps down on her arm and she turns her head enough to see Wes, white-faced and glitter-eyed. "You're not done patrolling," he says. "Or do you not care if this little tantrum of yours costs lives?"
She shrugs free. "It's two in the morning," she says. "That vamp made the sixth tonight and I can't be fucking everywhere, Wes. I'm tired, I stink and I need to sleep."
She's way more reasonable than he deserves so when his fingers bite down on her arm again, right over one of the bits scraped raw, it's the last fucking straw.
"Might wanna move that hand, Wes," she says in a drawl she learned from him. She's been wanting – someone - to touch her. Figures when he – they- did, it'd be like this, an angry clutch when she'd wanted – so fucking sue her – something with a shade of gentleness, a little bit of desire free of lust.
Not that Wes is looking remotely as if he wants to fuck her right now.
They're getting side-long looks from the few people wandering along, but in his expensive, nicely beat-up leather jacket he's giving off this untouchable vibe and she knows she's not the sort people cast as victim. Maybe they think he's her dad, searching the streets for his wayward baby girl so he can take her back to her distraught mom.
Or maybe they think she's the hooker who tried to lift his wallet. Either way, no one's coming to her rescue and of course they're right because she could take Wes down in a heartbeat, even tired and aching as she is.
Her fist drives into his ribs and she's seen him half-naked once, the day before he fitted a bolt to his door, and she knows where each and every scar on his torso is and she could've aimed for them, but she didn't. So, go her, for being merciful.
Except it's not a mistake she'll be making again because even as his breath leaves him in a betrayed, shocked grunt she feels the solid weight of his hand slamming into her, in pretty much the same place she chose on him, because they've trained together too long for there to be any surprises.
"Tell me!" she says. "Or I'll call him, I swear I will."
It takes him five terse sentences to spit out all the grubby details of just what a hero will sacrifice in the name of protecting the innocent – his friends' memories topping the list – and then he's laughing because she's all shocked face and shaking head and seems that's enough to make him smile at last.
"Angel wouldn't –"
"Angel did." He shrugs and starts to walk, with her falling in beside him, just like a good Slayer, but only because he's going the right way to get them home. "And I decided to start at the beginning. Return to what I was supposed to be."
"A Watcher," she says dully, because it hadn't been anything to do with her, not really – just a bitter Wes sticking two English fingers up at Angel and going back to the only job in the world where hurting vampires happens every day.
"Your Watcher," he says, correcting her, and the anger's drained away from them both suddenly, along with the passion that, yeah, had gotten her just a little bit hot back there in the alley, just a little bit needy and wet and –
"Don't think that worked out too well the first time, and if I'm gonna be honest, Wes, you're not doing much better this time 'round."
"No. It seems I'm not," he snaps, all business again, emotions tucked in as tidily as his shirts always seem to be. "As you're as insubordinate and willful as ever."
"Hey, that's not fair! I've trained, I've Slayed, I've fucking given up any social life because you get bent out of shape if I even, like, try and get it on with someone –"
"Is that what you want?" he demands as they cross the street and make their way up town. "You want to share your bed with trash like that?"
"Rather share it with you."
The silence that gets her lasts all the way to the street door to the apartments and she's burning up with anger by then because fuck, is he too good to get his dick wet with her? Is she just not up to his impossibly high standards? Was there a test and she failed?
And somehow all of that was supposed to stay in her head, not get yelled at him in a way that makes him wince as he looks to see if anyone overheard them. Because the apartment isn't a dive and there've been plenty of whispers and raised eyebrows and she's fucking sure most of them come from people who think Wes is her pimp or something, with the hours they keep.
He drags her into the foyer and that's something good that's come of this; his hands are on her now, natural as you like. "Will you keep your voice down!" he hisses.
"Sorry, Wes," she says with a sneer she's seen in the mirror of his eyes often enough to know how irritating it is.
"It's a breach of protocol," he says heavily, stabbing an impatient finger at the elevator button. "Not to mention the fact that –"
"I just don't do it for you?"
There's a taunt and a whimper fighting it out but he must've missed the quiver of hurt because he curls his lip. "You're not exactly my type, no."
She sucks in one outraged breath and places both hands on his chest, shoving him through the slowly opening elevator doors so that he slams up against the wall.
"Faith –" And he's pushing away and coming at her but she reaches out her hand and hits something that closes the doors and sends them lurching upwards.
"You don't get to lie to me," she says, and she's so very sick of this bullshit because it's all so very fucking clear now. "Not me. I'm your Slayer. I'm yours 'til the day I die in a piss-stinking alley like that one tonight, or a graveyard, or, just to be different, get knocked over by a fucking bus. You know me and it goes both ways."
"This is pointless," he begins, trying to shoulder his way past her because they've stopped and floor five is waiting for them to step out into it. She lets him get level with her and reaches down to grab a handful of cock.
"Think this proves you wrong in all sorts of ways," she says levelly. She slams her elbow against the control panel and the doors close again.
"Take your hand away," he says in a frozen whisper.
"Yes, Wesley," she says, doing just that, and when his head swivels to stare at her she's waiting with a studiously blank face, because Wes is smart and if she's figured this out, he's going to know and he's got three seconds before the confused doors open again and he's gonna have to be fast because she's tired of playing.
There's a slick heat between her legs and her clit's thrumming to the beat of her pulse, hammering away like it does when she's fighting, when she's killing.
And there's a pulse matching it beating in his throat as he swallows and his tongue flickers out over dry lips. She could've done that for him. Wet his lips for him.
If he'd asked.
"You're not amusing me," he says coldly, with an effort even she can see costs him, and he steps through the doors, heading to his dark, lonely box to tidy himself away for the night, because he is a fucking robot, she knows it, and if he thinks, if he fucking dares to think she's letting him get away with that –
"Come back here, you fucking bastard," she says in a fierce, infuriated whisper because one more complaint about noise at night and they'll both be kicked out. She runs after him and swings him around to face her. "What the hell are you doing to me? What're you trying to prove? I give in! You win! Now fuck me the hell now or I swear I'm going down this hallway, knocking at doors 'til I find someone who will."
He glances sideways at number 505, and fine, okay, she's not going to start with that one, but there's Andy something-or-other in 517 who'd have her panties down by her ankles before she'd finished telling him what she wanted.
"Get out of my way, you – " There isn't a feminine version of prick-tease, or if there is, she doesn't know it, so she settles for a surprisingly ladylike, 'time-waster' and watches his eyebrows go shooting up.
"As you've had every moment of my time for the last three months, I find that a singularly strange accusation," he says. "Or did it never occur to you that my, ah, social life has been rather limited too?"
"You don't need one! Just oiling and dusting now and then."
"Oh, I see," he says nodding slowly, his arms folded across his chest. "I'm so little of a man in your eyes that I don't even qualify as human.'
"Got that right," she says, ignoring the hurt in his eyes, deep down where he thinks she can't see it. "Human means caring, and you don't. Not about me, anyway. I'm just the weapon you point so you can kill vampires, all of 'em but the one you really want to see dead."
"And how very bloody insightful we are tonight," he grates out. "Would it surprise you to know that I'd never dream of killing him because nothing he did is as bad as what I did to him when I took Connor? That I – ran – through guilt as much as anger? That I'm trying - trying to carry on as best I can and, yes, using you to do it and wishing you were –"
"If you mention Buffy, I'll –"
The bewilderment in his eyes saves her from dreaming up a threat.
"Wishing you were a little more amenable to discipline," he spits out. She's about to tell him she's played that game often enough to know just how it goes, and all he had to do was ask, when she gets that he's not talking about sex and her mouth falls open.
"Say fucking what?" she demands, taking two handfuls of his jacket and hauling him to her. "I train when my eyes won't stay open I'm so tired, I eat all these freaky veggies you say are good for me, go to bed when you tell me, patrol when you say –"
And there's this satisfied, smug little gleam in his eyes as she recites all the ways she's slowly let him get her under his control the last few months, because if Wes gets a kick out of being in charge of his very own Little Miss Slays then he's probably spent all this time with an erection that just won't quit. And maybe she's not the only one moaning against a pillow, hips jerking futilely in the middle of the night.
"You sick, fucking bastard," she howls and the lights start snapping on so she brings it down a notch. "You've been getting off on this, playing your games and you – you-"
Her knee's surging up to nail him, because it's not like he's using his fucking balls so he won't care if they're rammed up high enough to jostle his tonsils, right?, but he's way ahead of her, twisting his hips to the side so her knee glances off his thigh.
"Now, now, Faith," he murmurs. "That's scarcely showing me the proper respect."
"You have to earn it, Wes," she says. "And you know what? I've earned myself an orgasm that isn't fucking D.I.Y.. Don't know what you've been doing but I've been flying solo and that's not good for me." She grinds against him and he doesn't stop her doing that. "Slayer, Wes," she whispers, all throaty and soft. "We get these urges, get these needs... Want me in top form, all gung-ho and raring to go? Gotta help me release some of this tension."
His hands slip down to her hips and still them.
"You want me to schedule fucking you into your training?" he says with just a shade too much incredulity to be convincing.
"Yeah. I do. Or I'll find it somewhere else and you can get pissy and up the reps on the tummy-crunches all you want, I'm still gonna do it."
He detaches her hands from him and steps back, leaning against the wall and giving her a cool smile. "Very well. But we do it my way. I'm in charge of all aspects of your training, after all. Is that agreed?"
And the wet heat's soaking through her thong and she's giving him a nod just to see –
"Faith. For possibly the twentieth time, when I ask a question of you I require a verbal reply."
"Yes, Wes," she says and waits one beat, two.
"Wesley." He pushes away from the wall so he's up close again and runs his finger across her mouth leaving a trail of tingles. "Say it."
She opens her mouth and his finger slips inside, which makes it kinda hard to say anything, but he pulls it out when she's given it a lick that promises a blow-job if he'll just fucking do this, and she's starting to see a glimmer of the rules, so she says, "Yes, Wesley" and gets an approving smile.
"Good girl..." he whispers.
"Thanks, Wes," she says, because he's put her through hell and damned if she's ever going to make this easy for him, because he wouldn't like it half as much if she did...
"Oh, it's going to be like that is it?" he says, and it's not her he's talking to, no, it's Wes making a mental note in his mental fucking day-planner.
"I think we need to institute a simple systems of rewards and punishments," he says in this musing voice as if they're not stood three steps from room 505 – room 50 fucking five, for God's sake – at three in the morning with her cunt dripping she's so fucking horny and his cock, from what she can see of it, so hard it's gonna poke a hole right through those jeans. "That certainly earned you a demerit rather than a gold star, so I think we'll clear that out of the way at once, don't you?"
Maybe she knocked her head in the fight and all this is some freaky kind of hallucination because there's two doors just a few yards away that they can go through and there'll be beds, and couches, and kitchen tables, come to that, and he could bend her over them, put her on them, hell if they had a chandelier, she'd fucking do it swinging from it, but no, they're out here and Wesley's telling her in the same voice he uses when her aim's off to the left with the crossbow that he wants her on her knees, sucking him off and the punishment's going to be that once he's come, it's gonna be a while (five minutes tops actually. She's got mad skillz, really she has) before he's ready to go again.
And she's fine with the going down on him, she really is, but they're in the freaking hallway.
"I'm waiting," he says, in this bored drawl, and he leans against the wall again and unzips and lets her see just what he wants her to take care of, running his hand along his cock in a way that tells her, yeah, he's done that before but how many times has he done it with an audience?
Doesn't seem to be putting him off, though, and if they get their asses tossed, well, the shower's always running cold and it makes more sense for them to share a place, really...
The hall carpet's hard and scratchy against her hands, and he hadn't told her to crawl over to him, but the slight gasp she gets makes it seem like a really good idea and it's only a foot or two, after all. She reaches out and takes hold of his ankles and climbs up his legs, heading for that golden goose at the top of the beanstalk.
His hands brush against her hair and then he pulls her up, hooking his hands under her arms, and she's whimpering with disappointment until she realises it's so he can kiss her, and she hadn't been expecting that, not at all, and his tongue's darting into her mouth before she's had time to get over that first kiss panic of which way to tilt your head, and it feels as if this is the hundredth kiss because Wesley just goes for it, without a second's hesitation and she's wrapping her hands around his neck and God, his cock's twitching and jumping against her, and she wants it on bare skin so she reaches down and wraps her hand around it, and it's so hot and sticky-tipped that she's fucking his mouth with her tongue and as pre-show's go it's good enough to make him push on her shoulders and she sinks down and God he tastes so good. She's had times when this was the moment she zipped up and left because man, no way was she getting any closer to something that smelled like that, but Wes smells clean, smells needy, and she's lapping away at him, sucking and nibbling and just swallowing him as deep as he'll go, hands busy with anything her mouth can't take, wishing he was lying down, legs spread so she could really show him how –
"Well!"
Wesley's groan as she slipped one spit-wet finger back behind his balls, jabbing upwards gently was to blame, she decided. Heartfelt as it was, it'd triggered a release so comprehensive that there was no way she could add her voice to the stammered apologies Wesley was managing to splutter out.
"Young man, there are times and places for – that – and this is neither the time nor the place."
The door to 505 closes with a bang and Faith looks up to see Wesley's face go back to the interrupted, anguished shudder he'd been in the middle of.
"You're good at that," he says a little breathlessly, holding out his hand to help her up and completely ignoring the interruption which she has to say impresses her. "But I think you need to work on the way you have a tendency to bite down unexpectedly."
"I was startled," she says indignantly.
He leads her to her door and opens it, ushering her inside.
"A Slayer is never startled," he says. "Always prepared for any eventuality –"
As his hand slides up to pinch one nipple into life as he says it, she spares him the ass-kicking that deserves.
lovesbitca never got her fic for the Wesley/Faith ficathon she helped to run. That's just a shame. So I got her request and dashed off this which isn't half smutty enough but it's better than nothing, I hope. It's about 4,700 words and it goes slightly AU after Wesley finds out about the memory wipe in S5.The request was Two things you definitely want included in your fic: (You can suggest more than two, if you wish to give your author an idea of the kind of fic you really like. But only the first two are required to be included.) Future fic, sarcasm, Wes topping, a furious argument in the street and then sex in a hallway.
One thing you definitely *don't* want to see in your fic: non-con, rape
Preferred rating: NC 17
Watching, Waiting, Anticipating
She knows he's watching her from the shadows but he's merged with them so well, and he's so motionless, that the vampire snarling in her face and making her eyes water, because, man, does he ever need to floss, ignores him for now.
Maybe he thinks Wesley's gonna make a tasty dessert, but she's not about to let him find out that if he is, it's something like sugarless rhubarb pie, bound to make your fangs water and ache with the sourness of it.
The vampire takes the small scrap of a chance she's given him by letting her eyes go to that silent onlooker and she feels his fangs pierce her skin even as his hand comes up to squeeze her breast. The fucker's practically humping her as he starts to suck and it'd be fucking disgusting if it wasn't for the fact that he's so worked up he's easy meat.
The dust clears and Wesley's a body's-width away from her, stake raised, eyes dark with something so far past fury she can't put a name to it. She hadn't seen him move, doesn't know if they both struck at once, but she gives a shaky little laugh and tucks her stake away.
"Get bored waiting, did you?"
As ice-breakers go, it's as effective as trying to melt the polar cap with a thimbleful of cold water.
"What the bloody hell was that?"
"Me. Slaying a vampire."
Sometimes she thinks she needs to look into taking a vow of silence. In the three months since Wes turned up, sneered at Robin until he faded into the – heh- woodwork and whisked her off to New York, muttering something about her deplorable lack of proper training, he's been getting on her last fucking nerve, but he's been helping her too. He's taken over her life and she's gained a few pounds – all muscle – forgotten what it's like to be awake at ten am because he has her slaying ' til dawn, and spent hours and hours and fucking hours trying to crack the shell around him.
She just doesn't get it. When they'd gone up against Angelus, Wes had been hard, yeah, but they'd parted friends; she'd even got a smile, which seems like a distant memory now because she hasn't seen him smile once since she opened the door to him wearing nothing but a happy grin and a skimpy towel, thinking it was Robin with takeout.
He's put them in apartments side-by side, and God knows how he pulled that off, but he did. He always knocks on her door, but if she doesn't open it in time he does it for her, because he's got a key, and she still hasn't recovered from the session he put her through the one time she brought a boy back to scratch an itch so she's turned into a fucking nun. Who kills things.
Sometimes, when she can't sleep, she hears the sound of him pacing, through the paper-thin walls, an endless re-treading of a path around a space as barren of personality as he's become. His stuff's stacked in boxes, even the books, and the walls are bare.
She'd think he was jealous of Dave, Dan – whatever his fucking name was – but in three months he's never touched her outside the training, or the first-aid and she's getting fucking lonely and bored and righteously pissed-off. She might have a robot for a Watcher but she's still got blood in her veins and if she doesn't get laid soon, she's going to sprain her wrist and wouldn't that get him narrow-eyed and tight-lipped? Sorry, Wes, can't train today; spent two hours trying to get off with the help of the lamest porn movie ever, a vibrator that's starting to overheat and this trusty right hand, and see, I pulled a muscle or something.
She's dragged back from that pretty image by a silence that's gone to a scary place.
Wesley's studying her as if she's something he sneezed into a hanky and his lip's curled up.
"He touched you."
And there are at least four places where she lost skin to the wall and the ground, and a couple of places where she's going to have bruises deep enough to last a day, but she knows that's not what he means. Her mouth dries up but she manages to work up enough spit to mumble, "Yeah," because Wes didn't like her just nodding when he asked a question.
Liked her calling him 'Wesley' too but she didn't give him that very often. Lines. You had to draw them somewhere.
"Show me."
"Say what?"
To say she's startled is an understatement. It's dark in the alley for one thing but it's just – this is totally not like him.
"Faith, I gave you an order."
"Yeah, and it made no fucking sense so I ignored it!"
"It's you who decides what makes sense now, is it?" he asks. "You acquired wisdom along with that bottle of vodka you seemed to think I didn't notice you sneaking into your room last night?"
"I didn't sneak it!" Lying was a mistake. Why he's stopped her drinking she doesn't know; not like she'd let it affect her work.
"Oh, yes you did," he says coldly. "And I'm still waiting."
It takes her a second to get back to where they were. "Wes, he was groping my tit, that's all. He didn't hurt me. You can't want to –"
Even in the dimness, lit by the sporadic flickering of a single streetlight, she can see the bland crook of his lips as he raises his eyebrows.
With a snarl she shrugs out of her jacket and holds her arm away from her side, glancing down pointedly at her breast.
He doesn't move away and she starts to wonder just what it's going to take to get him to, because the wall's at her back and he's hung so many, 'Do Not Touch' signs on him she's almost afraid to do what she'd have done with anyone else and pushed them aside.
"I want to see," he says with a slow deliberation. "Lift your top."
And he's flipped. Must have.
Which doesn't explain why she's peeling up her tee and getting chills as his eyes skim all the soft curves she's giving him to stare at.
He's so close she can hear his breath catch and it's an interesting sound, a little crack in the shell. All those taunts and tantrums and swearing because it pissed him off, and all she'd needed to do was flash some skin at a totally ina-fucking-propriate time to get him flustered.
Except as his hand comes up and curves, cupping the air around her breast in a thoughtful, considering kind of way he looks pretty fucking calm. And it doesn't escape her notice that he's telling her, wordlessly, that what he wants to see, the exact square inches fumbled by that filthy, new-risen piece of shit, lies beneath the satin and lace of her scarlet bra.
There's no easy way to do this and for a moment she's so very tempted to start stripping, flinging her clothes at him until he's standing there, a human hanger – but they're not going to be alone down here for long, not now the threat's been taken care of. The dregs who live here, drifting silently until they die, unseen, unnoticed, will be coming back soon now the vamp's gone. And the rats are starting to scurry again, tiny pink-grey feet skittering along the refuse-strewn ground.
With an inarticulate growl, she hooks her fingers into the underwire of the cup and yanks it up, baring her breast and feeling the nipple harden automatically, because of the cool air stroking it, not because Wesley's looking at it because he fucking isn't.
His eyes haven't left her face, as if all he cares about is getting her to perform, jump through each hoop held high in those long, elegant fingers of his, so deft when they're handling a gun or a knife, so careful when they're swabbing out her cuts with the fucking battery acid he calls antiseptic, so clumsy when they're doing something as mundane as making coffee, or doing dishes.
If he'd looked, if he'd just fucking looked at skin only her hands have touched for way too fucking long, she'd have stayed cool, she swears she would, but his indifference sends scalding, humiliated heat over her in a drenching flood and she's fumbling her clothes into place, yelping as her nipple gets pinched in the hasty drag downwards of her bra.
"I didn't tell you to do that," he says mildly, his voice reproving.
She smacks her hand against his chest, her own heaving with deep, shuddering, rage-filled breaths. "You don't get to tell me shit like that!" she screams. "What the fuck is your problem, Wes? Tell me, or so help me, I'm gonna do what I should've done right away and blow a twenty on a phone call to L.A and ask Angel."
His lips thin to nothing. "If you dare –" he begins, but she's already walking away.
"Fuck off, Wes," she calls back over her shoulder. "Take your uptight English ass and get it out of my face." Which is an interesting image but she's too wound to linger on it.
She's at the street when a hand clamps down on her arm and she turns her head enough to see Wes, white-faced and glitter-eyed. "You're not done patrolling," he says. "Or do you not care if this little tantrum of yours costs lives?"
She shrugs free. "It's two in the morning," she says. "That vamp made the sixth tonight and I can't be fucking everywhere, Wes. I'm tired, I stink and I need to sleep."
She's way more reasonable than he deserves so when his fingers bite down on her arm again, right over one of the bits scraped raw, it's the last fucking straw.
"Might wanna move that hand, Wes," she says in a drawl she learned from him. She's been wanting – someone - to touch her. Figures when he – they- did, it'd be like this, an angry clutch when she'd wanted – so fucking sue her – something with a shade of gentleness, a little bit of desire free of lust.
Not that Wes is looking remotely as if he wants to fuck her right now.
They're getting side-long looks from the few people wandering along, but in his expensive, nicely beat-up leather jacket he's giving off this untouchable vibe and she knows she's not the sort people cast as victim. Maybe they think he's her dad, searching the streets for his wayward baby girl so he can take her back to her distraught mom.
Or maybe they think she's the hooker who tried to lift his wallet. Either way, no one's coming to her rescue and of course they're right because she could take Wes down in a heartbeat, even tired and aching as she is.
Her fist drives into his ribs and she's seen him half-naked once, the day before he fitted a bolt to his door, and she knows where each and every scar on his torso is and she could've aimed for them, but she didn't. So, go her, for being merciful.
Except it's not a mistake she'll be making again because even as his breath leaves him in a betrayed, shocked grunt she feels the solid weight of his hand slamming into her, in pretty much the same place she chose on him, because they've trained together too long for there to be any surprises.
"Tell me!" she says. "Or I'll call him, I swear I will."
It takes him five terse sentences to spit out all the grubby details of just what a hero will sacrifice in the name of protecting the innocent – his friends' memories topping the list – and then he's laughing because she's all shocked face and shaking head and seems that's enough to make him smile at last.
"Angel wouldn't –"
"Angel did." He shrugs and starts to walk, with her falling in beside him, just like a good Slayer, but only because he's going the right way to get them home. "And I decided to start at the beginning. Return to what I was supposed to be."
"A Watcher," she says dully, because it hadn't been anything to do with her, not really – just a bitter Wes sticking two English fingers up at Angel and going back to the only job in the world where hurting vampires happens every day.
"Your Watcher," he says, correcting her, and the anger's drained away from them both suddenly, along with the passion that, yeah, had gotten her just a little bit hot back there in the alley, just a little bit needy and wet and –
"Don't think that worked out too well the first time, and if I'm gonna be honest, Wes, you're not doing much better this time 'round."
"No. It seems I'm not," he snaps, all business again, emotions tucked in as tidily as his shirts always seem to be. "As you're as insubordinate and willful as ever."
"Hey, that's not fair! I've trained, I've Slayed, I've fucking given up any social life because you get bent out of shape if I even, like, try and get it on with someone –"
"Is that what you want?" he demands as they cross the street and make their way up town. "You want to share your bed with trash like that?"
"Rather share it with you."
The silence that gets her lasts all the way to the street door to the apartments and she's burning up with anger by then because fuck, is he too good to get his dick wet with her? Is she just not up to his impossibly high standards? Was there a test and she failed?
And somehow all of that was supposed to stay in her head, not get yelled at him in a way that makes him wince as he looks to see if anyone overheard them. Because the apartment isn't a dive and there've been plenty of whispers and raised eyebrows and she's fucking sure most of them come from people who think Wes is her pimp or something, with the hours they keep.
He drags her into the foyer and that's something good that's come of this; his hands are on her now, natural as you like. "Will you keep your voice down!" he hisses.
"Sorry, Wes," she says with a sneer she's seen in the mirror of his eyes often enough to know how irritating it is.
"It's a breach of protocol," he says heavily, stabbing an impatient finger at the elevator button. "Not to mention the fact that –"
"I just don't do it for you?"
There's a taunt and a whimper fighting it out but he must've missed the quiver of hurt because he curls his lip. "You're not exactly my type, no."
She sucks in one outraged breath and places both hands on his chest, shoving him through the slowly opening elevator doors so that he slams up against the wall.
"Faith –" And he's pushing away and coming at her but she reaches out her hand and hits something that closes the doors and sends them lurching upwards.
"You don't get to lie to me," she says, and she's so very sick of this bullshit because it's all so very fucking clear now. "Not me. I'm your Slayer. I'm yours 'til the day I die in a piss-stinking alley like that one tonight, or a graveyard, or, just to be different, get knocked over by a fucking bus. You know me and it goes both ways."
"This is pointless," he begins, trying to shoulder his way past her because they've stopped and floor five is waiting for them to step out into it. She lets him get level with her and reaches down to grab a handful of cock.
"Think this proves you wrong in all sorts of ways," she says levelly. She slams her elbow against the control panel and the doors close again.
"Take your hand away," he says in a frozen whisper.
"Yes, Wesley," she says, doing just that, and when his head swivels to stare at her she's waiting with a studiously blank face, because Wes is smart and if she's figured this out, he's going to know and he's got three seconds before the confused doors open again and he's gonna have to be fast because she's tired of playing.
There's a slick heat between her legs and her clit's thrumming to the beat of her pulse, hammering away like it does when she's fighting, when she's killing.
And there's a pulse matching it beating in his throat as he swallows and his tongue flickers out over dry lips. She could've done that for him. Wet his lips for him.
If he'd asked.
"You're not amusing me," he says coldly, with an effort even she can see costs him, and he steps through the doors, heading to his dark, lonely box to tidy himself away for the night, because he is a fucking robot, she knows it, and if he thinks, if he fucking dares to think she's letting him get away with that –
"Come back here, you fucking bastard," she says in a fierce, infuriated whisper because one more complaint about noise at night and they'll both be kicked out. She runs after him and swings him around to face her. "What the hell are you doing to me? What're you trying to prove? I give in! You win! Now fuck me the hell now or I swear I'm going down this hallway, knocking at doors 'til I find someone who will."
He glances sideways at number 505, and fine, okay, she's not going to start with that one, but there's Andy something-or-other in 517 who'd have her panties down by her ankles before she'd finished telling him what she wanted.
"Get out of my way, you – " There isn't a feminine version of prick-tease, or if there is, she doesn't know it, so she settles for a surprisingly ladylike, 'time-waster' and watches his eyebrows go shooting up.
"As you've had every moment of my time for the last three months, I find that a singularly strange accusation," he says. "Or did it never occur to you that my, ah, social life has been rather limited too?"
"You don't need one! Just oiling and dusting now and then."
"Oh, I see," he says nodding slowly, his arms folded across his chest. "I'm so little of a man in your eyes that I don't even qualify as human.'
"Got that right," she says, ignoring the hurt in his eyes, deep down where he thinks she can't see it. "Human means caring, and you don't. Not about me, anyway. I'm just the weapon you point so you can kill vampires, all of 'em but the one you really want to see dead."
"And how very bloody insightful we are tonight," he grates out. "Would it surprise you to know that I'd never dream of killing him because nothing he did is as bad as what I did to him when I took Connor? That I – ran – through guilt as much as anger? That I'm trying - trying to carry on as best I can and, yes, using you to do it and wishing you were –"
"If you mention Buffy, I'll –"
The bewilderment in his eyes saves her from dreaming up a threat.
"Wishing you were a little more amenable to discipline," he spits out. She's about to tell him she's played that game often enough to know just how it goes, and all he had to do was ask, when she gets that he's not talking about sex and her mouth falls open.
"Say fucking what?" she demands, taking two handfuls of his jacket and hauling him to her. "I train when my eyes won't stay open I'm so tired, I eat all these freaky veggies you say are good for me, go to bed when you tell me, patrol when you say –"
And there's this satisfied, smug little gleam in his eyes as she recites all the ways she's slowly let him get her under his control the last few months, because if Wes gets a kick out of being in charge of his very own Little Miss Slays then he's probably spent all this time with an erection that just won't quit. And maybe she's not the only one moaning against a pillow, hips jerking futilely in the middle of the night.
"You sick, fucking bastard," she howls and the lights start snapping on so she brings it down a notch. "You've been getting off on this, playing your games and you – you-"
Her knee's surging up to nail him, because it's not like he's using his fucking balls so he won't care if they're rammed up high enough to jostle his tonsils, right?, but he's way ahead of her, twisting his hips to the side so her knee glances off his thigh.
"Now, now, Faith," he murmurs. "That's scarcely showing me the proper respect."
"You have to earn it, Wes," she says. "And you know what? I've earned myself an orgasm that isn't fucking D.I.Y.. Don't know what you've been doing but I've been flying solo and that's not good for me." She grinds against him and he doesn't stop her doing that. "Slayer, Wes," she whispers, all throaty and soft. "We get these urges, get these needs... Want me in top form, all gung-ho and raring to go? Gotta help me release some of this tension."
His hands slip down to her hips and still them.
"You want me to schedule fucking you into your training?" he says with just a shade too much incredulity to be convincing.
"Yeah. I do. Or I'll find it somewhere else and you can get pissy and up the reps on the tummy-crunches all you want, I'm still gonna do it."
He detaches her hands from him and steps back, leaning against the wall and giving her a cool smile. "Very well. But we do it my way. I'm in charge of all aspects of your training, after all. Is that agreed?"
And the wet heat's soaking through her thong and she's giving him a nod just to see –
"Faith. For possibly the twentieth time, when I ask a question of you I require a verbal reply."
"Yes, Wes," she says and waits one beat, two.
"Wesley." He pushes away from the wall so he's up close again and runs his finger across her mouth leaving a trail of tingles. "Say it."
She opens her mouth and his finger slips inside, which makes it kinda hard to say anything, but he pulls it out when she's given it a lick that promises a blow-job if he'll just fucking do this, and she's starting to see a glimmer of the rules, so she says, "Yes, Wesley" and gets an approving smile.
"Good girl..." he whispers.
"Thanks, Wes," she says, because he's put her through hell and damned if she's ever going to make this easy for him, because he wouldn't like it half as much if she did...
"Oh, it's going to be like that is it?" he says, and it's not her he's talking to, no, it's Wes making a mental note in his mental fucking day-planner.
"I think we need to institute a simple systems of rewards and punishments," he says in this musing voice as if they're not stood three steps from room 505 – room 50 fucking five, for God's sake – at three in the morning with her cunt dripping she's so fucking horny and his cock, from what she can see of it, so hard it's gonna poke a hole right through those jeans. "That certainly earned you a demerit rather than a gold star, so I think we'll clear that out of the way at once, don't you?"
Maybe she knocked her head in the fight and all this is some freaky kind of hallucination because there's two doors just a few yards away that they can go through and there'll be beds, and couches, and kitchen tables, come to that, and he could bend her over them, put her on them, hell if they had a chandelier, she'd fucking do it swinging from it, but no, they're out here and Wesley's telling her in the same voice he uses when her aim's off to the left with the crossbow that he wants her on her knees, sucking him off and the punishment's going to be that once he's come, it's gonna be a while (five minutes tops actually. She's got mad skillz, really she has) before he's ready to go again.
And she's fine with the going down on him, she really is, but they're in the freaking hallway.
"I'm waiting," he says, in this bored drawl, and he leans against the wall again and unzips and lets her see just what he wants her to take care of, running his hand along his cock in a way that tells her, yeah, he's done that before but how many times has he done it with an audience?
Doesn't seem to be putting him off, though, and if they get their asses tossed, well, the shower's always running cold and it makes more sense for them to share a place, really...
The hall carpet's hard and scratchy against her hands, and he hadn't told her to crawl over to him, but the slight gasp she gets makes it seem like a really good idea and it's only a foot or two, after all. She reaches out and takes hold of his ankles and climbs up his legs, heading for that golden goose at the top of the beanstalk.
His hands brush against her hair and then he pulls her up, hooking his hands under her arms, and she's whimpering with disappointment until she realises it's so he can kiss her, and she hadn't been expecting that, not at all, and his tongue's darting into her mouth before she's had time to get over that first kiss panic of which way to tilt your head, and it feels as if this is the hundredth kiss because Wesley just goes for it, without a second's hesitation and she's wrapping her hands around his neck and God, his cock's twitching and jumping against her, and she wants it on bare skin so she reaches down and wraps her hand around it, and it's so hot and sticky-tipped that she's fucking his mouth with her tongue and as pre-show's go it's good enough to make him push on her shoulders and she sinks down and God he tastes so good. She's had times when this was the moment she zipped up and left because man, no way was she getting any closer to something that smelled like that, but Wes smells clean, smells needy, and she's lapping away at him, sucking and nibbling and just swallowing him as deep as he'll go, hands busy with anything her mouth can't take, wishing he was lying down, legs spread so she could really show him how –
"Well!"
Wesley's groan as she slipped one spit-wet finger back behind his balls, jabbing upwards gently was to blame, she decided. Heartfelt as it was, it'd triggered a release so comprehensive that there was no way she could add her voice to the stammered apologies Wesley was managing to splutter out.
"Young man, there are times and places for – that – and this is neither the time nor the place."
The door to 505 closes with a bang and Faith looks up to see Wesley's face go back to the interrupted, anguished shudder he'd been in the middle of.
"You're good at that," he says a little breathlessly, holding out his hand to help her up and completely ignoring the interruption which she has to say impresses her. "But I think you need to work on the way you have a tendency to bite down unexpectedly."
"I was startled," she says indignantly.
He leads her to her door and opens it, ushering her inside.
"A Slayer is never startled," he says. "Always prepared for any eventuality –"
As his hand slides up to pinch one nipple into life as he says it, she spares him the ass-kicking that deserves.